Last Exam

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.....

Today is gonna be my last day before my final paper tomorrow... I am very excited but at the same time worry cause i spent much of my time surfing the internet and sleeping.. So not productive!!

But well.... on 6th of July... I gonna participate in a seminar about productive ramadan brought by productive muslims... I do hope that I can start changing rather than proving....

Please pray for my success in my exams and also my safety on my journey to the event...
And I wish all the best in whatever you are doing as long as Allah pleased.. Thank you and see you again.... =)

Ma3assalama.... 

Trust

لا اله الا الله!!!

{ When the hypocrites and those in whose hearts was disease said : their religion has deceived them; and whoever trusts in Allah, then surely Allah is Mighty, Wise.} (al-anfaal:49)

This week, I wanna work on an issue. An issue that had been hindering my personality from growing and blooming. 


Have you ever heard quotes like this before????

Yeah... It is about trust. Hard to gain; easy to shattered. Well; I have problem with trust. My past had taught me not to trust anyone; and when when I say anyone I mean everyone. Our past experiences had been found to be one of the factors that directing our behavior and our feelings. So; sometimes we can see a person who is once cheated by his/her partner; he/she will hardly open to anyone afterwards; not only to people who hurt him/her.


For example; a little girl had lent her friend a teddy bear. And one day; her friend return the teddy bear but it was all dirty and worn out with some of the cotton's  coming out from its stomach. What do you think if the next time; that friend of the girl wants to borrow something; would the little girl gives them? Or what if other friends of her came to borrow some toys of her; would she give them away?


I know most of us had encountered one of many examples how people crushed our trust. Well for me; once bitten twice shy... Once people had let me down; never ask for second chance from me. I just don't want to have any relation with someone who never appreciate my trust. If they thinks that I gonna forgive them like that; they had me wrong. 



Then I learnt that I need to start to open up to everyone around me. Especially those who care for me. Yes; not everyone is perfect. Maybe they will disappoint us but how many times actually we had disappointed them? How do they put up with our obsession of not trusting people and with all the craps that we threw to them although it is not true?


Every time we tell them how much we don't trust people; we are actually saying to them that we need some people to be trust- and we want them. 



What would our life be when we don't trust anyone around us? Lack of trusting could lead to a miserable life. Each seconds and each minutes of our life; we will only think of the bad things that people will do to us. We will feel not safe all the time. Every time we will think what people do behind us... do they plot something against us? We will become very tired because we are busy not trusting everyone- making us do almost everything by ourselves. Example; assignment works; house chores etc.. 


In Islam; it teaches us to always have good mind to others - regardless of what they had done to us. And of course we had to be careful but it doesn't mean we have to reject them totally and thinking that everyone will be the same. Some time people breach our trust making us not to belief them anymore but that would be absurd to say that I will never trust people anymore. We just have to be careful and still treat them nicely. And of course; only to Allah should we put our trust to not to other human being. If we put our trust only to Him; we will never feel disappointed with people because we have faith that what ever people do to us it comes from Allah and Allah knows the best or He might be testing us as His slave to see how strong our faith to Him. 


{Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, We believe, and will not be tried?} (29:2)

Old Friend of Mine

Be fear of Allah and Allah is the Most Gracious and Most Merciful....

Life without boundary.. World is getting smaller... I would never think of finally meeting my old lost friend since i was in primary school or even since i was 8-year-old. Those hazy fade memories of mine with him as a friend do mean a lot. 

I was actually inspired by him in much of ways, I mean although i was just a kid back there.. but I do find someone that i can look up for... as my benchmark or something... And after he's gone, leaving the school.. I actually couldn't find any other person that can replace him. Never, even now. 

So, I grew up in my comfortable zone.. Don't have to struggle to be something or to be someone (although that is too much).. I never felt threaten with my surrounding accept for the fact that I am not an easy-going person (which I have to change the attitude). Although there are lots of great person around me, I never want them to be my standard... Sometimes, the way they treat me make me hate them even more (but that was totally wrong and against the Islamic attitude). 

But that was my past. Although I find difficulties in my social life, facing others, due to my inferiority out of nothing, I cannot pass thinking that I am better than anyone else at the same time. This mixed of feeling or interpretation of situations just make my emotion not stable. But I tried to be strong and most of the time I lost.

Many means I had tried to get rid of these inferiority and self-proclaimed attitudes but they often failed. Although sometimes it seems working but my main character (not easy-going) always interfere. I think it is not the methods that are flawed... it is me yes! Myself, who is the main obstacles in my road of changing. 

Well, my friend, knowing that you are still present and be part of my incomplete life, it does mean a lot to me... maybe to you i am just another old friend.. but for me you are Allah guidance to help me in my way of becoming a better man and slave. 

May this ukhuwwah is based upon love for Him and not on dunia only... I do hope that I could be someone like you... Not a copy of you but having the best qualities that you possessed... And of course, I know and always knew that both of us would share the greatest role model, the living Qur'an.. non other than our beloved Rasulullah p.b.u.h..... 

That's all till now. May Allah be with you... 

Introduction (Bonjour)

السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركته.........

Bonjour!

It had been my dream to write a blog. Now, my dream came true. Well, not quite so... I do owned a few blogs before but they didn't stay long... after a few week, i get bored and stop writing... But, this time I can feel it would be different.

I want to clear my intention of writing this blog only for الله ... and may He guide me to use this ni'ma for deed and da'wa... I know and always do, that I am not someone who is famous neither acknowledged by many... I just a little person (figuratively) who dreams to pay his obedience and obligation in the righteous path (His path). 

But, I need support and advice from you, my reader to correct me if i were wrong or if i were confused with my words or anything.... Just let me know.. Please, your comments are going to improve me to be better. 

ان شاء الله.... That's all for this introduction.... Hope this little piece of my work will contribute little although not much in the spreading of da'wa..... أخير كلام: مع السلامة.... الى اللقئ

Au revoir !!